Transparent Regrets

This year has been a year of soul searching for me. I have looked back on my life and must say with a lot of regret for some decisions I have made. I asked my mother-in-law on of one of our morning walks, if she ever has regrets that consume her at times like I do. She immediately responded, "Oh yes, sometimes I break out in cold sweats when I think about some of them." Because I believe her to be one of the most Godly, sincere women I know, I found comfort in her words, that we all have regrets of some degree.

I never looked forward to being called an old woman. Now that I am officially old in the eyes of children, and sometimes in my own eyes, I understand why in the 2nd chapter of Titus we are told to teach the younger women. There are some paths that we have taken, some mistakes we have made that we can help the next person be aware of and perhaps help them make better choices.

In doing so, we must become transparent. We have to be willing to say, this is what I did right, if I had it to do over again, this is what I would have done. I would not have made that decision, I should not have trusted that person. Hold your peace, keep some things to yourself, be careful who you allow to get close to you.

We must tell them. No one would have known about Peter's denial that he was one of those who walked with Christ, if he had not told them. It was only him and the young girl who knew. And he denied it to her. But he wanted us to learn from his failure.

We needed to see how far he failed so we could do like him and get back up. We have to pass this on to the next generation.